Why It's Okay to Admit You're Struggling

Sunday, 14 May 2017

This week (8-14 May) has been Mental Health Awareness Week, and, coincidentally, it's come at a time when I've been really, really struggling with my mental health. There have been a lot of things going on in my personal life that I've found extremely difficult to deal with, and because of this my mental health has taken a battering. I've felt low - really really low - and very alone.

Recently my life has changed quite a lot and, me being someone who really struggles with change, I've found it incredibly hard. My depression, something that I've always battled with, has come back with a vengeance, and with it my struggles around food have flared up. My boyfriend is away at the moment, and coming to terms with living on my own again has really been tough. As I work from home too, that's just added to my loneliness and being left alone with my thoughts hasn't been much fun.

Now, more recently whenever I've been struggling, it's been really easy to just bury my head in the sand, hide away, keep my problems close to my chest and put on a brave face. I hate burdening people with my troubles; I recognise that everyone in life has problems, so why would anyone want to hear about mine? It seemed like the easier option to just hope I'd feel better in the morning, or that I'd 'try again tomorrow'.

Last week, however, it really got too much and I found myself sobbing down the phone to my mum, asking for help. Whilst I hated the fact it made me (in my mind) seem weak and pathetic - a nuisance even - as soon as I got off the phone I felt instantly better. I'd bared all - shared my struggles and found that getting it all out made me feel so much better.

I'm writing this to let you know that whatever you're going through, and however low you're feeling - you don't have to do it alone. You might not want to admit that you're having a tough time, or maybe you don't want to burden someone else with your problems. You might not even feel like you have a friend in the world to share those problems with, but I promise there is always someone out there to talk to. Whether it's a friend, a parent, a partner, or even someone at the end of a mental health helpline - speaking to someone and sharing your struggle will help so much.

I hope this has helped anyone going through something tough right now. Just know that you're not alone, and that everything is only temporary.

You can find a list of mental health support lines here.